maybe is the time for me to leave

不知不觉就快要2月了。。。
步入19岁的我，感觉上一直不想长大。
人就是这样，小时候的我们一直期望自己能长大。
成为大人，可以不用上课，不用做功课，不需要遵守什么烂学校规矩。



当长大的时候，才发现小时候的自己是最幸福的。
无忧无虑地，只需要做好学生的本分就行了。
现在需要烦恼金融风暴，哪里都裁员的世界中。。。
有谁还要请我们这些刚刚步入社会的宝宝呢？



3月就是大韩航空来了，我知道我一定可以被录取。
不是因为自信，
而是一种女人的直觉。



人家说：“星期四出世的小孩以后会离自己的家很远的地方去。”
我就是星期四出世的小孩。
以前不想被父母和家人约束着，所以选择了空姐这行。



可是当你看到父母越来越老，
开始戴上老花眼镜，白发开始长出来的时候，
我觉得，自己会很舍不得他们。
多想留在他们的身边，至少他们不会担心。



我的表哥下个月就是要到台湾去了。
而我就是会到韩国去了。
真的很舍不得。。。。
舍不得这里的朋友和家人，
以后要怎么见面？
少了他们的关怀和欢乐。。。我会是寂寞的吧！
我从来没有试过到一个语言不通，地方陌生的地方。。。
感觉很害怕。。。
我并没有你想象中那么勇敢。
我也只是个女孩。




还有就是均，
我不知道我们能再一起的时间有多久。
每过一天，我们的感情就越来越浓。。。
他有说过，自己会很舍不得和担心我到韩国去。
三个月，说多不多，说少不少。。。
他会等我吗？
我也只能安慰他现在的科技很发达了，
有3G，有web cam, 也有电话啊！
可是这话就连我自己都说服不到，
更何况是他？



均是一个很特别的人，
表面上他是很吊儿郎当，什么都以笑带过。
其实他知道很多东西，只是他选择沉默。
他为了不让我伤心，所以他选择以笑容来掩饰他的不舍。
偶尔，他会说出一些让你很感动的话。



可是我能怎么样呢？
只能默默地珍惜我还能留在这里的每一天~



因为
maybe it is the time for me to leave.

明天就是了~!

明天就是杏奈的最后面试了~
这一个星期,杏奈和DEAR都一直在一起....

看电影, 他陪我放学搭火车回家,我等他放学去吃饭...
一起走路去搭巴士. 他整头都流汗了~但是还是会笑着看杏奈(甜甜)
最近发现杏奈和他在一起久后会变得比他"废".
而DEAR常常被杏奈"炸"到伤痕累累~(笑)

譬如说:

在过马路时,
DEAR:"小心,抓紧我的手,这路很难过的..."
杏奈:"那等下我们要一边拿纸巾搽眼泪,一边过马路咯?"
DEAR:"为什么?(一脸疑惑)"
杏奈:"你说"很难过"啊...不是吗?"
DEAR:无言.....

第二次过马路,
DEAR:"这马路很难过哦~!"
杏奈:"那我们~~~~"
DEAR:"要一边拿纸巾搽眼泪,一边过马路咯!是吗?"
杏奈:"不是,是要拿纸巾给马路."
DEAR:"WHY?"
杏奈:"这次是马路很难过嘛~!"
DEAR: 被炸到翻白眼

杏奈:"DEAR... 如果我面试成功了,你会怎么样?"
DEAR:"我会替你开心咯~!'
杏奈:"噢~你会"踢"我,然后你很开心咯?!"
DEAR晕~

+++++++++++++++++++++还有很多+++++++++++++++++++++++

说真的,如果杏奈成功了.会很开心.... 不过~很舍不得他.我担心他会很孤独...所以乘现在杏奈都为我们建立一些回忆好让他能存在心中. 他说会为我在心中留下一席的位子.

他常常让杏奈很感动,他曾经很认真地告诉了杏奈好多话

• 要了你也就要了你全部。
• 不管你到了那里，我的心上的空位只有你能来添满。
• 不管你到了那里，闻到你回散不去的味道，看到你的照片,也就感觉你就站在我右边。
• 我不管你以前是怎么样的,我只在乎你的以后.
• 我的素描画上原本只是用铅笔stroke 而已。当你出现后，你就成了我的胶泥檫（patty rubber）

我知道他会对我很好, 可是当每次他对我很好的时候.... 杏奈就觉得自己对他不够好. 看着他的笑,我能继续让他这样开心地过每一天吗? 为什么我不能给他好像平常情侣的甜蜜? 为什么他等了那么久还是得带着微笑毫无怨言地等? 我给不到完整的爱情他.... 我也好希望给他如平常情侣的恋情,我不想看到他那么辛苦. 要如何呢?

DEAR....未来的日子我不知道能不能给你快乐,不过请你要相信,我会一直努力的.

他对杏奈就有如这首歌.

The LAST FINAL!

Yesterday was my final interview at LCCT(Terminal LCC, near KLIA)
start from 4pm.
Early in the morning, my mind jz keep thinking abt those interview question tat Ms Mulai teach b4.
Keep on studying abt AirAsia history.(first time i working so hard on HISTORY)

1 Person i hav to feel very thankful to him.
Is my 24孝 daddy.
He purposely take half-day off to fetch me go LCCT for the interview.
Sumor he is sitting at The coffeebean cafe thr to wait me for 2 hours(maybe more) and doing nothing!
So Damn TOUCHING~!
(Tears Coming out.....)

Alright, out of topic for HOURS d...

COme back.

When i arrive the LCCT, tat's no information counter reception sitting thr.
So i asked the security guard,

"Excuse me, Do u noe whr is the AirAsia office?"

"O, AirAsia office? u go straight then take the lift to 1st floor. U can c the AirAsia office d."

"ok... Thx very much"
(c how a pretty great manner tat i had....~(-o-)~)

Follow wat the security guard pointing at... keep on walking to find 1 lift.
bt then~
WHERE'S THE LIFT~!?
i walked through the whole LCCT d, none 1 signboard i can c tat show lift.
Ask again another security guard,
MAnA tahu, is inside 1 room.
so secret wan~
Looking at my ODM watch(showing off), is 4.o5pm.
GOSH~!

After registration and filled up the application form,
go in to the hall tat some1 ask me to go in.
WALAO A~
more than 100 ppl sit at thr lar~
those gals keep on taking their foundation powder o lips gloss to put on their face o check up their makeup.
Finally i found my gang, Shean Mei, Cindy n Jessie.
Shean Mei asked me,

"Stephanie, do u put makeup on ur face?"
"yaya.... Y ask so?"
"O.... no wonder ur eyes look so charming, bt ur blush n foundation put very 薄."
"Wat~?! really cant even feel tat im put A LOT of Foundation d ar?"
" yaya."

WAHSEH~man... i put maybe got 1 cm thick d lor. First time the powder so thick ar....! bt then after i viewed all gals' makeup, wat should i said is: Is tat they r putting beige simen on their face? Most of them really quite tat horrible d... Fake lashes, thick powder!

Stephanie hav to say at here is:

"女生们啊，化妆是用来让你的容貌完美。遮盖瑕疵缺点，展现你的优点特色。而不是把你变成另外一个人和面具啊～！＂

I jz luv Jessie and Shean Mei's grooming. Feeling quite comfortable when looking at them. Tat's wat makeup should do on ur image!

i get the number of 32, Jessie was 30, Shean Mei was 20, and Cindy is 16.

When my turn to go in the interview room, tat 1 interviewers for today.

First, they asked me to follow the arrow on floor to walk catwalk(air crew walk, not modeling).
Second, they asked me to show my hand to check whether i had any visible scars o tattoo.
bt, my hand got some red dots cz of food allergy.
The interviewer asked:" wat's the red dot on ur hand?"
"food allergy, Madam"
"ok...(she look at me wit a serious face)"
Finally, to read the announcement.

When i walked out, Jessie was waiting for me. i told her wat was happened inside jz now.
After i said abt the food allergy problem, she get shocked and ask
"Why u dowan to tell them is mosquito bite? if u said allergy tat's no good for ur image ar~!"
"Ya lor(now only i realise tat)....shit~!"
"Ms Mulai asked us to tell this kind of answer if asked"
"I dunno.... is ok, jz get this time as my experience lar~!"
(wit a sad look)


While all girls were chit chatting in the waiting room.
The interviewer taking a lot of form and come in, all girls stand up and waiting wit a nervous face.
WAt am i thinking at tat time is,
"can i go to toilet? i really tahan for hours d ler....(LAUGH)"
The interviewer said,

"those numbers pls come out."
"45,44,43,42,41........33,31,29,28.......16....1"

wat? no 32 and 30?

jz jump off....!

While those gals wit numbers called going out, me and Jessie look to each other wit a blue face.
full of disappointed feels....

"V cant enter the next round, JEssie"
"ya...im so sad."
"Is ok ,take it as the experiences, Jessie. Mayble said there's 1 more interview after Deepavali ma~ cheer up"

(at tat time, i had no mood to go toilet anymore. SO SAD~! And thinking tat Y the no.45 gals is weight 63kg can in, bt i can't.?!)

Then looked at those gals been called out, the interviewer told them

"U all can go back d, U all din pass today's interview."

WAT? they din pass...?!
Which means......
WE ALL IN THE ROOM TAT DIN BEEN CALLED WAN PASS!
at tat time, those gals inside the waiting room all screaming...hugging each other...congraz to others....!
someone even cry out~!
Me and Jessie hold each other's hand tightly and smile to congraz each other.
when looking backwards, Shean Mei at there.
Which means...
She oso pass wit us~bt feel so sry to Cindy.
HURRAY~!

When walking out to look for daddy,
1 AirAsia air stewardess talked to me(Jz now, she's the 1 of air stewardess inside the interview room)
She asked me,

"When will u come back again for the 2nd Flight Crew interview?"
"1st of Nov( i was thinking tat how she noe i was pass?)"
"Hope to c u soon."
"thx~"

When meet daddy,
I told him the news and oso sms my dear...
HE feel more happier than me,
then keep on telling ppl on phone tat i was passed.
WAhaha....

While in the Journey of going back to PJ,
guess wat i saw?

I saw RAINBOW~!

wat's a lovely days!











*My next interview will be on

1/11/08
at AirAsia Training Academy, Sepang.
8am.

Wish tat i can pass it too....( bt really starting to lack of confidence d...)
GAMBATEH to myself~!

WAT~!? IM PASS?!

Yesterday was my Air Asia first round interview.
Cant imagin tat only 3 days i study then can interview d~
As Mayble n Ms Mulai told,
i hav to wear short-sleeves shirt, knee skirt n black high-heel.
Well...
im the new student for Centuria Training and educational Center.
the latest student for 14th batch

While waiting for going to the class to fill up the Sass Altantic Application Form,
guess wat?

i meet somebody~!

I meet SabrinaT n one of my primary skl classmate- Xin Min.
bt then they r not Centuria student( today is open to public interview)
really a big surprise when meet them.

Sabrina really a pretty.

Ok, after a few minutes of waiting.

Many of the khabar angin come out...

some of them said the interviewer come from Singapore,
sumor no self_introduction.
Bt keep asking the General Knowledge.
(luckily i read news paper everyday, except for yesterday...SWT)

While waiting the calling of interview student.
Ms Mulai(my class teacher) ask me to go for the interview d.
Wat the~!

"im not ready yet lar~ Ms Mulai~!"
ME wit a get shock horrible face
"Stephanie, jz act as yesterday night class, i hav highly hope on u! U r good."

Teacher....
i will be more nervous wit those senior will full experiences....
Do the best tat i can lar~


Going to the office at Block A4, everyone was waiting.
I saw Rebecca, Nicole(the birthday gal of tat day), Nana and Jessie.
They jz finished their interview, waiting for the result only.
Nana said, there's no self-introduction for today.
Bt the interviewer asking as the Khabar angin said,

abt general knowledge and all stuff of politic, economic even financial...
Hur? i noe nothing abt all kind of those question~

MAMA MIA~!
then, Mayble taking the shortlist of who was pass for jz now interview.
TAt jz Nicole n Jessie.
Means tat Rebecca n Nana, 2 experience students n potential was failed?!
then i sure die lar...

Then JOe(1 of the smart guy from Centuria students) calling me after his interview.
"Phang Yan Xing, is ur turn."

HURRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?!
kk...

DEEP BREATH~!
HMMM~
HUUU......

Then interviewer is a guy wit a smiling face.

"Good Afternoon, Sir"(keeping my BEST smile)
"ok, sit down"
"ok... Phang Yan Xing. Pls read tis article abt cotton for me."
"Ok.... BLa...BLA...BLA...wait... GArment? is how to pronous? GAR- MEnt? o GAR- MET? CIncai lar....BLA bla..... Finish, Sir"
"Alright, Phang Yan Xing. Here's ur question. Safety and Service, which 1 is more important. Why?"
"I think Safety is the most important for everyone, sir. Safety is the basic of airline. Life is very important.If we cant giving our customers( actually , is passenger) a safety.......(wait, how to say zixin in english"....ergh.... sry,sir... give me a few sec."
"Is ok, Calm down...."
"Thx,sir"
(Squeezing my brain)
" We cant give our passeger wit safety confident, they wont fly wit our airline again"
"Good, Yan Xing. You may wait for ur result outside"
"Thx, sir"

After a few minutes, Mayble taking the shortlist and come out.
"Stephanie, u r in and u can go for the next round of English Paper"
Wat?! im in?
thx... GOD!

When walking to the A2 class, Joe keep on saying Why he cant in to me.
then although im An Wei-INg him, im really happy...
SRy ya, JOe.

My english paper quite ok, cz those obj quetion teacher had giving the clue.
bt, the essay~
i feel confident wit the essay tat i wrote.
the Question is:

"Do u made any mistake in ur life( or someone tat u noe)? how do u overcome ur mistake?"
wat i write is abt my dad he did the mistake in his life is he din continue wit his dream cz of realistic. How i overcome tis mistake is go ahead my dream to bcum a Cabin Crew. Add on, as Dato' Tony Fernandas(AirAsia Founder) said:" tat is a overwhelming experience if u done something tat ppl think u cant."

Im the first who pass up the paper.(cz finish d ma pass up lo, not a kind of showing off)
B4 packing my thing,
guess wat Ms Mulai said?
she said im SMART~!
HAPPY!

At night,
I received 1 msg from Mayble.

The msg is
" Hi, tis is Sass Altantic. U r been selected to the final round for tmr. Pls go to LCCT when 4pm............................................................"

WAH~
IM IN~!
Waiting for today's Final Interview~!
Pls...
let me pass it!


*First i write my blog in Eng Version, maybe cz affect by someone who is very important to me. Maybe HE is reading tis blog now. Wat i gonna tel him is, DUN LAUGH! i noe thr is LOTS of grammar mistake. So tats Y i need u to teach me ENGLISH lar, then v exchange i teach u Chinese. K? Haha.... thx for him cz he's always support me and tat y i success yesterday

photo shooting

昨天刚接到MAYBEL(我的空姐AGENT)告诉我星期二要去面试AIR ASIA的空姐应征.

她说要2张全身照和2张PASSPORT照,
杏奈脑海中立刻闪过~
WALAO~
我以前的PASSPORT照简直就是三百年前的清汤挂面样子啦~
有看过杏奈的驾驶执照就知道有多好笑了~
如何见人?

想到全部FORMAL衣服都留在吧生家里,
就唯独特地去IKANO买了一套衣服和鞋子.
杏奈就快要扑街(穷)了~
照片方面就只好找摄影馆的老爸帮忙.

今天自己化个妆,
自己觉得还蛮浓的...
结果镁光灯一闪,
什么眼影,眼线,眉笔,腮红都没有了~
有点后悔没有让到那边的化妆师化妆,
也明白为什么新娘总是化个2-3小时的大浓妆拍照.

这是今天的拍照结果.

半身照

全身照

*有什么COMMENT吗?不管是说杏奈肥,丑,老,都接受哦~!

面试成功了~！

今天紧张的时刻到了~！
因为今天就是杏奈要到CENTURIA面试当空姐！
今早7点就起床梳洗了，
化妆、选衣服、洗澡、和弄头等等的~
弄了两个小时那样。。。（好像要去什么大场合）
原本和MAYBEL约了11点的，
可是因为妈妈走错路，所以耽误了10分钟~

到了办公室过后，才发现自己并没有那么紧张啦~！
而且因为MAYBEL要的是有自信的女生。
最开心的是,
她说杏奈很有潜质而且她表示对我很有信心。
所以她会把杏奈的培训从3个月缩短成1个月半。。。
因为她希望杏奈能很快就飞，
知道吗？杏奈自己本身都没有想过会那么顺利呢~！
杏奈被安排于AIR ASIA和ＭＡＬＡＹＳＩＡ　ＡＩＲＬＩＮＲ之下
杏奈才１８岁（１１月才满），所以目前为止ＳＩＮＧＡＰＯＲＥ　ＡＩＲＬＩＮＥ和全球最好的航空公司ＥＭＩＲＡＴＥＳ是２１岁以上才能当空姐的。
只怪杏奈太年轻（笑）

因为杏奈的ＣＬＡＳＳ是比较紧促的，所以下个星期日就开始了。
而且上课竟然还要穿到很ＦＯＲＭＡＬ，衬衫和到膝黑裙，和黑色的高跟鞋。
还有需要化妆，（这个倒还好）
想象一下，穿那样去搭火车上课～
唉～会很热且很像ＯＬ吧？

原本还以为会很靠近ＳＵＮＷＡＹ的，就可以和政方（杏奈的超好友）一起上课。
有个男生一起，感觉比较安全。
再加上政方这个人虽然有时候嘴巴比较爱开玩笑，
但是人对女生是很细心的～
在这里谁要跟他相亲的请联络杏奈哦～！
哈哈。。。（开玩笑，方哥）
哪里知道他竟然还说幸好没有靠近ＳＵＮＷＡＹ哦～
因为他说不想看到杏奈。
你Ｘ的～！＠＄％︿＆＊
最后一次的脏话了。
以后就要注意形象的了～（泣）

因为空姐是一项要顾仪表的服务性质的工作，
所以杏奈必须要一直维持现在的身材和好润的肤质。
杏奈妈比杏奈还要紧张，
她开始禁止杏奈吃快餐和汽水。。。
就连杏奈爱喝的DIET COKE都被禁止了~
还有一切的零食和冰淇淋~

小老板的紫菜、
BASKIN Robin的冰淇淋、
Lays的粟片
CAlbury、
snikers,*kit kat
MCD~!

再见了。。。杏奈的最爱们~
Goodbye my loVEs...(泣）


在这里要谢谢各位朋友在杏奈ＦｒＥＮＳＴＥｒ上的加油留言。
名单有的是：

西游记之悟空媚
Vicky
★ZEXUAN★
Cathy
VySS_ （AIVY）
忆雪
黑黑白白神或魔
bLack APple
n3w- （彦）

当然还有就是为我加油的朋友们

方
德贤
伟杰
国泰
ANICE

总之就是感谢所有支持杏奈的人，
无论你们是在心里默默为我加油或是给我祝福的都要谢，
要不是你们～
杏奈应该会被刷掉的吧～
谢谢哦～！

从今天起，杏奈就是空姐了！（在培训中的……）



* Kit Kat也是最近杏奈才爱上的巧克力，浓浓的牛奶味~
不知道为什么就是突然发现它的好吃~
\（-n-)?
方，我可以参加你的KIt KAt Forever了~
哈哈。。。